Honestly, I'm ecstatic. My business was shut by the government yesterday. For days I've been feeling horribly guilty about staying open, but also worried about not being able to pay my staff if we closed. I've not had a single day off for almost a year now, and I'm really looking forward to properly sorting my flat out and having a stress-free sit down for the first time in as long as I can remember. I didn't realise how much just opening every day was affecting me until I woke up this morning and sprang out of bed with a liveliness that feels completely new to me. It's been a revelation. Such a shame that it's taken a disaster like this to bring me round. The business will suffer, and I definitely need to get on top of that and try and work out what I can do to mitigate things. But not for a few days. For now I've got books to read, videogames to play and an allotment to finally try and get on top of.
I must admit I woke up and thought today, when this is over I will try and do something else with my life